confused.
i love nydc's jedi mudster.
heavenly.
i change my mind about gu qing yang.
i could actually understand what he was talking about.
shall stop boycotting him.
i passed my econs.
so when you get the first question right you pass.
i hope the same goes for psy.
it's only when it's late at night that i'll think about myself
and realised all that i've been through is what brought me here at this time and place now.
i recall all the past and all i could think of is "how did the world did i decide to behave like that?!"
all the may have
would have
should have
fades into nothing.
i wish i can rewind time.
i wish i can redo everything i did before.
i wish i have more strength, courage, determination, self discipline.
i wish i proudly say that i have no regrets.
happiness has to be fought for.
i fought for only that much for the past 19 years of my life.
look where i've landed.
i feel all the unpleasant emotions that all humans possess.
and yet i wish i never felt them.
they make me upset, miserable,
and most of all, hate myself.
it's normal, it's natural for people to feel this way.
yes, i feel so much better.
